New Year 2009/1430H

Hati in terdetik seketika..new year lg?that wat i always ask myself.msa berlalu dtg n pergi tp ape yg aku bt within tis 12 months=365 days.oh god..kala ramai org (aku rasa) celebrate new year,aku kat bilik 6th college ni..mcm xde mood nk kemana2 tis year.sedih pun ade sbb xsmpt blk rmh,jmpe mak abah..klu b4 tis smpt jgak blk rmh jeguk mak abah tp thn ni,nk exam..final of final mbbs.lg2 la posting medicine agak busy.so many things to cover.bl sorang2 kat bilik,byk benda yg aku pk,tah la concentration terganggu..awl muharram baru je berlalu 29/12 pastu new year 2009 pulak.dgr radio,tgk tv..byknya org kluar mlm ni celebrate new year..sunyi je blok..jam hbs KL..tibe2 aku terpk ms new year 1430..xramai pulak yg nk celebrate smpi mcm ni.tepuk dada tanya minda n iman.btul ckp saifulislam 'tanggungjwb tanpa cinta adalh beban dan derita'..tanpa cinta pdNya dan Islam..bg yg memahami maksud sume ni,duduk dan fikir ape yg berlaku slame ni.

Di MaNA keTENANGan itu?

Hr ni aku dpt sms dr someone 'kta sering mahukan hr yg CERAH tp Allah lbh mengetahui,hakikatnya HUJAN perlu dturunkn..kt sering inginkn KESORONOKAN jauh skali kesshn tp Allah lbh mengetahui,KESUSAHAN itulah yg mengajar kt erti kehidupn..kt sering inginkn KETENANGAN,hakikatnya dri ini penuh DOSA dan KEJAHATAN,tp insan xdpt lari dr KESILAPAN..sume itu bknlh 1 HUKUMAN tp sbg tanda KASIH dan SAYANG agar lbh bersabar dan dekat pdNYA'..thanks 4 tis 'beautiful' sms..mg ni mmg aku rase xde semangat nk buat pape.tp bl tibe2 sms ni ade..bru aku tau betapa ruginya msa2 yg berlalu..aku sentiasa mncari dimana ketenangan itu.kdg2 hati ni kosong dgn ape yg terjd within tis few years..it start from my fren and that one..i dont know,i just wanna b myself..tat all i always tell them..at the end of the day i'm alone.nevermind its all about love,care n sharing.. its really HURT me..

Learn new things today..

Hr2 mendtg lbh membahagiakn klu kta +ve watever happen..hr ni tetibe kna present long case dgn Dr edmund..fuh..semangat tp tkut jgak my case kna pick coz i'm not really prepared coz got another 4 cases(mmg pening sehari semlm cover the whole ward).actually my patient,44 years old indian lady presented with fever associated with myalgia n lethargy 1 month PTA.she was diagnosed to have chronic myeloid leukemia (CML) then developed resistant to glivec aftr 2 months of treatment.she readmitted again for 1 month.so current admission,she just electively admitted for furher management which i think bone marrow tranplant.b4 class ramai yg psycho Dr edmund itu ini..terpsycho jgak sbb 2 tkut..tp actually he is very very nice man..i learn new things today from him.so moral of story,just think +ve watever happen.kdg2 mmg kta rse hidup ni xadil..tp at the end of the day,kt learn something new from wat happen.thanks doc..

Kerana Hidayah itu..

Apa yg berlalu biarlah berlalu, cita2 adalh harapan yg belum pasti dn bgmu hnyalh saat yg sedang djalani..Alhamdulillh dh abis exm ortho,2 more posting to go...